{trigger warning: detailed description of self-harm particularly mutilation} How can you atone for an incorrect existence? I spent most of my life believing that something had gone horribly wrong, and as a result I was born. No one said otherwise. The effort to atone for my incorrect existence quickly became the only way...
Category Archives: fatherlessnessWhen I was a girl, I kicked my sneakered feet forward and tucked them back tight as my swing reached the sky. The best days were the rainy ones, when my bike rides produced soppy clothes and muddy legs. I climbed trees and skated rinks. Up and up. Around and around. And I understood- them....  Last night, the hub and I attended the Adoption Knowledge Affiliates monthly meeting where they held a screening for Sunshine. Read about it on our adoption blog, A Peculiar Love.  My heart has been pulled in four-hundred-sixty-eight directions today. I feel it in my chest- ripping at connected arteries and overly filling the space around it. My ribs ache. My head hurts from the pressure of blood pulsing. I’ve really never experienced this many feelings at once and I’d like to turn my feel-er off for... Fatherlessness marks our nation leaving behind teen pregnancy, teen suicide, gangs, and prisons. It does no less in the heart of an individual person. There are thousands of us walking around and while I can only tell my story, I know that there are many others who could sign their own signature at the end of it.... |
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